Friday, January 01, 2016

Back in the day

I have bikes. We have bikes. In the darkroom and in the loft and the tandem at a pals' place. We sold/gave away a lot of bikes when we came up here to live some nine years ago.

Eve still does ride regularly, wind permitting but I, dear old things do not on account of me on-going M.E./CFS that I do and have done for 15 years or more. It is debilitating. I still work but save my daytime energy for it. I can sail if I don't overdo it but cycling.......

I miss cycling a  lot. I was my fav pastime and for ten years my profession as a Velodrome cycle coach. sadly, the last time I had a proper bike ride was after I'd got myself back on track doing The Lightning Process . You see, I'd pretty much had worked it out that ME?CFS starts with the mind and then manifests itself physically gradually wrecking what physical stability you had before, making me tired - very tired, fogging the brain etc etc. And The Lightning Process sorted that out. Overnight. Over three nights really. I could walk, cycle, laugh, sleep, stay awake and my tummy settled down for once. Wonderful.

In celebration - this was 2011 I have omitted to say - Eve and I cycled round Harris. For Eve this is nothing much, for me after years not cycling it was a tad more of a challenge but one which I enjoyed immensely. It is a lovely route to ride after all.

Look, cycling and snapping. Smiling too - or was that a grimace? 

Only this state lasted 6-9 months only. I don't know why. I used the tools I'd been so well taught. I got support on the phone and I went to have a top up which gave me another few months on no CFS. Now I fret. I know I managed to sort myself out with some support and advice but these days knowing that just makes me annoyed with myself for not being able to do it now.

Now you know why I get grumpy from time to time.

I'd like to say my New Years resolution is to get better biut I am losing faith with my ability in this area. But I will try.

Have a wonderful, safe, healthy 2016 who ever, wherever you are.


Anonymous said...

You can do it, even though it's an up hill journey. The view from the top will be nice.

Michael McNeill said...

Keep the faith. Stay strong.